i hate this part of me..

i hate this part of me.
i'm just be like a~ a few post before.
but look at me now
like a mad person
getting down again..
what's the matter?
can somebody tell me?
i'm so dull now..
song A~
i miss u ...
Ana...where are you?

别看！

i hate u
你有什么资格说那些话？
凭什么叫我走？
我知道你很快乐
你不必用那些笑容来对我炫耀
没有你我或许活得更好
你知道吗。。
你的臭脾气，难看的脸，刺耳的声音
讨厌死了
真后悔对你说那些安慰的话
我真想吐。
那种脾气看了就讨厌
你所的那些话，是刺入我的心脏的毒针
我恨你
i hate you
你是看见的
你是知道的
但你却选择继续你的快活
而不理我的死活
好呀你
是很可爱，是很单纯，
也很虚伪
恶心死了
我讨厌你的视若无睹
我恨你
i hate you
说真的
我不知道你到底哪里好了
他们都对你称赞有加
以你为中心，围绕着你
那感觉一定很棒吧！
少了一个根本不算什么
你已拥有了全世界
现在连唯一的缺陷都圆满了
你到底上辈子烧了多少香啊？
我恨你
i hate you
说不是你，就不是你吗？
忽然多出来的你，
到底在扮演着什么角色？
真是对你又爱又恨
今天的谈话开心吗？
我想一定很开心吧
你可以尽情的说啊
任何事情。
i hate you
多么自私的人类
笑得跟撒旦没什么两样
个个眼里只有自己与快乐
像个疯子，
说他几句就卯了
真是愚蠢
哼！无知的人类
活得像个愚者似得
分享。。
你们之间的事
谈天说地，有说有笑。
多快乐呀
不是么？
也对，谁会跟一个什么都不懂，
没有用处，没有长处，又于你们格格不入的人
——————
好像被置放在角角落的花瓶
不
连花瓶也不是，
空气也不是
什么都不是的我
我好讨厌这种感觉
我好讨厌这样的你
恨死了
哈！
现在，
你一定很恨我
我还没做好心理准备
别来找我
别问我
我不想回答
够了
让愤怒停止吧
我快抓狂了
停止吧！！！

what the hell happen to me?
the stupid friendship's problem had been solved,
but why am i still being with my tears?
everyone has got their smiles back
they can already laugh
but why am i cant even smile
why do i feel so ?
too many things hit on me.
too many bad news rush into my ears...
just cant stand for that.
maybe i've happy for a long time...

...
-Micheal Jackson has died.
the day before today...
felt like losing something and there's a blank on my heart...
for no reason.

I just feel pity..
he's such a so so talented person....
the super super star in the world...no one can beat him...
一个巨星的崛起，闪耀着万丈光芒
照耀着世人的眸子，深深地刻在世人的心里
它的崛起，爆红，叱咤风云。
他的陨落，衰退，腐败，
人生路上大起大落后
又站了起来，希望再做一次巡回。
但这终究是一场希望。
陨落了
巨星
但他从没褪色

从没在他的歌迷心中褪色
重温已经是场梦了
但他永远活在人们心中
努力地闪耀的巨星是不会死的
但愿他在天国已脱离病魔的纠缠
继续歌唱，继续跳舞，继续表演
*衷心祝福
安详











his music makes people young.
n' look at his fans...
this is what a super star could do ...

bound to the super star..
rest in peace...
Micheal Jackson....

*now, i'm feeling better...it rains now... in the way not so heavily....but i'm already alright...after taking a deep breathe. i'll start to smile again....hahaha~ good luck !~to u n' to me...n' the super star in the heaven now...although i'm not his fans, but just feel pity on this ...the world has lost a super star...but he must be living in a great condition in the heaven...he got his fans best wishes...he got our best wishes.... ...R.I.P. ..MJ... ....greeting from J.P.

宝贝，加油啊！！！

终于可以深深体会
那句
笑容越是灿烂的容颜之下的那颗心是如此的脆弱
没有经历过的人，不会感受到
那种不安，失落，紧张，愤怒，悲伤，孤独
排山倒海地袭击灵魂时的感觉
那是镇定丸都不可以平复的情绪
几乎崩溃
仿佛只有死亡才能释放的灵魂
挣扎着
多么痛苦。。。
那是一种不理解，一种低潮
我也曾经有过这种感觉。
几乎迷失
只是我那么幸运，
遇到了一位天使，给了我许多勇气
引导我找回自己，学会放下，敞开心扉，承认于接受。
这是很重要的一课
很庆幸我终于学会了
宝贝，如果你有什么问题，
只要你肯说，我就肯听
只要你肯分享，我就肯给与予意见
talking is sharing,sharing is caring,caring is loving...
and i'm always loving you
haha....
cause you are my friends,
babies

Ana....nice to meet you

Ana has gone...
i miss her.
feeling like something of me has gone..
hmm...
loosing something makes people feel bad and sad.
i do really want to be friend with her.
i'm so sorry that i've neglected her..
i do not mean that..
but i wish she can comes back sometimes,and leave some comment for me..
and let me know that she's still in a very good condition
then i'm happy enough with this.
Ana,
good luck for u .
be happy~
> <
it's nice to meet you....
greeting from joen.
ever......

Heart of Gold-by JigokuNeko

my heart was once good and whole
made of the purest gold
but as i travelled down the river
they made it tremble, made it quiver
broken now i hold it close
though tis hollow though tis lost
so it was i came upon her pier
the witch and her apprentice near
she looked at me and said
,while her ' prentice shook his head,
"Give to me your heart of gold
and i shall mend it as twas of old"
willingly i gave away my heart
this useless bit that broke apart
and i received a heart of steel
an armor great that all could heal
"Now you'll hurt no more
no pain shall ever reach this core"
i thanked her and thus i turned to go
as her ' prentice said "but you should know,
neither joy nor love will touch you now,
this heart of steel no such will allow."
by-JigokuNeko

a good step !!

i think i am more confident to myself...

today, i got a literature presentation.
well, as you know,i'm really not good in english.
my friend had wrote an article and i just have to read it out loudly.
if last time, i sure can't do it well. i must giggle in front of the whole class.
but today,while i'm reading the article,
i can feel that i've done it very well.
i did not pronounce the words wrongly,and i giggle no more.
i am really happy.

it seems i have started a very good step.
and i will continue to improve my english.
yea~~
i wanna make friends with the world.
it wont make with my poor english.
so,
Refueling it for me!!
and for yourself!!
let's improve our life together !!!!!!
급유!!!!!!

嫉忆

记忆那，
串流于理智之下
是那被遗忘的嫉妒之血。
费了多少时间与心思，
于是封了
不在肆虐
终究解脱
从那嫉火中。
我将不再游移
就让血液干枯吧
也不会让它重演
愚昧的
不在占有我
释放的灵魂，
飞翔。
永远

n' hometown it called....

Annyoeng~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i'm back!!!
ARRRGGG~~
happy~~happy~~ ^...^

ya.i'm back from ma-hometown
ma-lovely hometown~
haha~
i went back on Saturday,about 4-6p.m.
i took ma-camera, i wanna take picture
i'm always feel that ma-hometown is a very beautiful place.
on the way back,
i suddenly saw a very nice view.
it's make up by the sun and clouds.there's the picture!
it just look like a horse ,donkey or something..so cool.

then,we also passed by a lake.
the lake is surrounded by trees ,mountains.
it's a very nice place.
if u visit here at night,if that's a clear n' dustless,fog-less night;
if u can see those stars shining, if u can see the moon smiling,
u can even imagine how beautiful is this place,how romantic is here.
ya ,it does.
i'll save money to buy a better camera to take it's photo in night view.ahhh~~~
u know, the best place to see the stars, moon,the sky,is a place out of the city.
listen to me.it wont be wrong.
just go out from the place u are staying now!
then u'll find something new and beautiful .
and think,
try to think about something that u never think before.
such as:
do you like the way you are living now?
do you feel happy now?
do you know the way you are going to?
do you remember the most important thing that you should remember it always?
do you remember who you are?
do you remember the faces that love you and you loved?
do you remember the song make you touched and cry?
do you lost anything?(what is that?)
do you remember the most important lesson you've learnt?
are you the you that you know?
if all the answers are yes,
CONGRATULATIONS!!
i think you are in the great condition
but if you're not,
GOOD LUCK~~i wish you.
hope u can find out the best answer
good luck~~
at here,u can tell a story.
a story of anything,or maybe yours .
and i'm sure, that the story must be a very unique,and an only tale in the world.
to the mother nature,and to u.
haha~
----------craps end--------
such a miracle!
my father stopped the car by the roadside, and let me to take pictures.
i was so happy ,i ran here and there.....of course,i'm like a ?
___________(fill in the blank)
with my camera...well, those visitors were very respectable.and they don't care about me
thanks to them...so i can take pictures more freely!(^^)V~~*yeay~


cloud kiss~~



it seems they had found the one and only person in their life .wish them happy ever after~




maybe there's a fairy tale behind it.

maybe the the witch stand here and curse to the two stonees....or the lover met right here...
who knows?
a couple~shhh....don't disturb them.~romantic-ing~~




there's a family having picnic n' fishing.


such a beautiful place.
finally,we continue our journey.before that,i bought an ICE-CREAM!!!!
yeay! ~(^ ^ )~
don't u know ,
eating ice-cream will make people happy!!!
so, eat ice-cream when u feel sad.but pls, not too much, if not, u'll grow fats.
don't make yourself big in size just because of that stupid sadness.
remember,u r always the greatest person in the world.
well, ICE-CREAMMM!!!!!
then we continue our journey.
well,
i'm so dissapointed to see the river become....full of soil.
it looks so dirty.
i remember almost a year before it used to be a very pretty place.
haizzz.....poor mother nature,cruel human biengs....
i hate u!
i curls u !
then, we saw a beautiful waterfall.
i tell u arrrr~~~~
the waterfall really really relly really really beautifulllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i didn't take the picture of it.course i know my father wont stop the car again.
because i wasted a lot of time when we were at the lake.
hahahhahah~~~~
' ^'` well,just wait for the next time.
i must get the waterfall next time!!!!
good luck to me!!!!
~~~
finally,we reach the house!!
(i forget to take the photo of the house~~next time)
my grandfather,grandmother,aunt no.2&3&4,my cousins-Ming Jun(Jun,15),MING Jian(Jian,11),Ming Hui(Hui,6),Rong Han (HanHan,3),and ma-uncle.
they all have their thing to buzy with .
so, after greeting with them,i took ma-camera,ride on a bicycle,and go for an adventure.
it was almost 5.30p.m.++
i just go with my camera and bicycle.
this was the moment i've been waiting for .
i love that feeling that go with nothing to care about.
that's what i always dreaming to
i wish i could make this dream comes true one day.
but it needs a very very lot of strength.
i'm trying to collect them.
andda,good luck to me!
haha.
well,these are the pictures i took.
they are quite nice for me.haha,leave a comment and tell me ur opinion.
the chaser~~it looks like a man and a lady...don't u think so?
~~~~
then i went home.
it was late,and my stomach is singing.'gror..groorr.groorrr....'
ya, it's time to have dinner.
but actually,i wont felt hungry when i'm doing things that i like.
haha~~
i went home by the big road.there are quite dangerous.the cars drove very quickly.
but i suddenly found something!!!
very pretty....and i like it.

arggg~~
never thought that this could appeared at here,and i found it.
i'm so happy!
i love it!
do u like it?
i know u'll like it as i do..
haha~~
very pretty rite?
thanks god!
a tale told by the time~
haha~i plucked a few of this plant.
emmm.....do you know what's the name of this plant?
it's really very pretty.
pink and soft .
when i gone home,i straight go to the rooftop,bringing the pink plant.
i took pictures like a fanatic.haha~
and the product of my fanatic,look down!
then, i saw the way of the sun.
the amazing dusk.
i like the last picture.
....
for the result of my fanatic,
i ate ma-dinner with myself.
but sometimes Jian and my brother come acompany me.
~~
finally,i'm done with everything i rest in the living room.
out of the blue,i saw Jun so gancheong about the time.
i ask him some questions,then we start argue as shown as down.
me :你等着看终极天团啊
Jun :没有啦，唱歌又不好听的。。。看棒棒糖罢了啦
me :harrrr!!! 棒棒糖 ?! why!!唱歌又不好听，又不靓仔，又不会跳舞，又酱娘.!@#$%乱七八糟!
Jun :。。。酱你讲完了咯。。
me :^...^V
....i win...
^...^V
~~then,i layed in the sofa.
Jun is buzying with his PSP game.
i asked him for his cellphone.
firstly, he don't wanna give me..
when i ask for the second time, i just took it.
he look at me ,i smiled at him..
he sweat,then continue his game.
this time, he didn't warn me anything.just repeat
'what do u wanna see?nothing to see...'
chieh~nothing to see?
i saw his photo .
i show him.i thought he will go mad.but he ask me back'handsome?'
i sweat/////- .- ....zzzzzz
and,there are many picture of her girlfriend.
i show him again.
he said'pretty leh~'---------i sweat/////-.-
'don't so upset,i noe u are not that beautiful...'
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.............
brother, don't be upset, i know ur taste not so good that u like this girl....
AAA.....don't be upset,she's okay~~
*people who in love are the person,who, the most stupid...
haizz.....brother,don't be upset....
~~~
almost 1.30a.m.,i go slp...so damn tired andsleepy....zZz

here ends my first day of my day in home town.
____________________________________________________________________
Arggg....
what a fine day.....
the sun shines brightly ........
while i was smiling in my dreams.
ahhh~~
suddenly,i heard the sound of the opening door.
then i felt something touching my leg.
i open my eyes,and i saw HanHan...--.--
...ya..he had become my morning caller.every time i come back.he is the one who call me up..
haha,he's so cute.as long as he do not be in mad.
den, we have our breakfast at the very famous restaurant .
we ate 卤面(lo mee)，炒面(cha mee)，鸳鸯(yun yong)，青面(chign mee).
we, almost 10 people:
aunt no1&2&3,Jun,me,ma-bro,Jian,Hui,uncle,and HanHan.
but the last ppl cannot eat. he's sick.poor child,just look at out enjoying faces.
~~
den,he become very impatient, start to disturb ppl.like this!
well,of course he was punished.
(haha~~)
after that, we went to a shop "Mr. Sotong"
...buy sotong.
don't ask me why, i wondered also.
but i found something cute.
this fan's size,is...like just 2 A4 paper.
very cute!
and there's a 'mountain' os sotong.that girl is Hui.
she actually has a very pretty face.
but her personality,spoiled her image.
i just like her face.
then, we sent aunt no.1 home.
we go to her second house. then, i saw a well.....
well, then, we went home.
argg~~
my aunt no.3 said, there are cat and kittens in the kitchen.
(the kitchen is not in the house.they were seperated.the kitchen is at outside....it's hard to explaine here....haha~~)
then,Hui and i go see the kittens.
suddenly,there came Mr.HanHan.
can u try to imagine, two kids(3&6),having fun with kitten.
such a cute picture.
haha~~
there are 5 kittens.3 are bigger,the other 2...(5cm/11cm)
so....small....coz they were born later..


~~~
wat is this?
hot,fresh,delicious homemade dumplings!
ahhh~~~~
i love it.
~~~
then,the women become very buzy...
prepare to fried our snacks!
fried sweet potatoes,fried bananas,n' one more..i dunno wat's it's name,but very delicious.i'll post it next time..haha
~~~
then i go play poker with cousins.
my grandmother go for a nap.coz she is going to cook 8 dishes that night.
i admire her.

then,i'm free and watch TV~~
in the evening, i continue my photoing
haha~~



ya..haha those are all
i like this place
haha~~~
and i've took some very pretty ,star-liked photoes of HanHan..
yea~ check it out babe~
i found that,
he can sing quite well.his pitch is quite high(cause he's still small),and his 音很准
but ,
u know....kids.
many words they still don't know
and he can't pronounce the words properly.
'为了你而活'
he sang:为了你的活 ,为了你的活 ,为了你的活~~~~
except these, he don't know already....
poor me have to sing for him....
then he sing '1 little, 2 little 3 little children.....10 little _ _ _...........?'
he changed the melody...
but still okay~quite nice
i recorded his lovely voice...
i'll try to post it later...haha
last time,he sang Lee hom's
'what's wrong with me~ro-o-ong with me~~'
but he just sang the sound .
i was shocked.
and he loves camera as you see....
good future!
for him ,and for you.
my lovely....